NaNoWriMo is kicking my ass.

Seriously. I'm not even at 33k and I'm tired and my hands hurt and my back cracks every time I move.

I'm now learning that the novel writing process is extremely painful as well as extremely gratifying.

Tip on the Nano site says when you're struggling you need to kill a character. I'm only dealing with my main characters at present and I can't kill them.

Wait...I need to write in a scene where they travel to a village.

Someone in this village NEEDS to die.

Violently.

I'm feeling good about that. Maybe I'll TSoD them!

I hope I can write 9000 words over the next two days. I did it before when I deleted all of Chapter 4. I can do it again.

I can, by God!

Take that Nano!

I might be down, but I'm still spitting out words like a pugilist spits out teeth.

I'm not out of this race yet.

The NaNo Journey...so far

I could also call this post "My Life on Overtime."

I'm not sleeping. I'm drinking too much coffee. I'm obsessing over word counts. My plot bunnies are afraid of me. And we're all terrified of the Muse, who has become an evil whip-wielding overlord.

Yes, I'm doing NaNoWriMo. For the first time. I admit it: Days before November 1st, I became downright terrified. Call it performance anxiety. I was certain I would abandon the project before the week was over or before I'd reached 8000 words, whichever came first. And I'd spent a whole year bragging to my friends and any poor fool who would listen to me that I was going to write a novel in November.

So...how's it been for me so far?

It's been both a Blessing and a Curse.

A blessing because I am finding out that I can write some pretty amazing shit when I'm not agonizing too much over plot lines and development. I'm letting the characters develop themselves. I'm bitch-slapping my inner editor and calmly reassuring myself that I'll be editing all this stuff soon enough.

What else do I know?

1. Writing is easy. Just let go and do what you were born to do. But also;
2. Writing is hard. What the hell is my next sentence? What's going to happen next?
3. It is important to Back Up Your Work. I deleted a whole chapter last weekend. Forever. Had to rewrite from scratch. Twitter friend Catherine Russell turned me on to Google Docs. I'd already been using it for other stuff. <writer smacks forehead in a V-8 juice moment and says a very bad word>
4. Twitter friends, Facebook friends, and local Wrimo's ROCK! They encouraged me at my lowest point (see #3) and kept me from throwing in the towel.
5. Take notes. I'm not stopping to edit (much) so if I write something that gives my inner editor fits, I annotate it in the software to look at later. 
6. Coffee tastes pretty damn good at 2 a.m. 
7. I am having the time of my life, regardless of how much this novel sucks right now. 
8. In twelve days, I will have written more words on any one project than I have ever written before. 

I also know that 50,000 words will not complete this novel. I don't even know if 50,000 words will get me halfway finished. 

But, and this is probably the most important thing I've learned so far about this whole NaNoWriMo manic writing experience:

I can write a novel. Yes, I can!

My brand new shiny author blog...

So, what do I need another blog for?

I asked myself the same question before I made the decision to create this blog.

Basically, when I went to the St. Petersburg Pier to take part in signing books for "Zombie Nation: St. Pete," an anthology in which my story "The Lust, The Flesh" appears, I got to hang out with some folks who have been doing this writing thing for awhile, and one of the most important things I learned from them was: I need to get a more professional image. Out of the dozen or so of us that were there, I'd bet that more than half put out business cards. I had never thought of business cards before. Some of my new comrades gave me their cards and another thing I noticed was that many of them had nice author websites.

I am a long way from getting a professional web site. I've been flirting with WordPress for awhile, but I'm scared of the techy stuff involved with it. Someday I'll dip my tootsies in those high-fallutin waters.

In the interim, I created this site. An author site for me, with an author address:

http://mariakellyauthor.blogspot.com

I guess I need to get working on those business cards now.